Tales from the Deep

This blog is to exist as something of a journal and outlet for my various ventures. The plan is that others will join me in some sort of circle.

The last few weeks have been unusual. Being signed off work is a first. Being constantly overwhelmed by a network of hyperactive senses all conjoined in forces in abstract by the involuntary linking of senses that is called synaesthesia. I've known for a long time that I see abstract shapes and colours all around me when I hear sounds, but It has taken me a long time to realise just how linked my senses are or how smells can be stimulated from any other sense. Abstract visuals occur from touch. Tactile sense are stimulated by any other sense. The bad thing is how touch or other senses seem to be able to result in pain and a hypersensitive digestive system.

This extreme combining of the senses is not something that will ever change. Though it feels like I am no longer able to deal with how it pulls my moods around.
Stimulation at first inspirational turns in the end to a sense of unease turning into a faster beat beat heart beat and an overwhelming anxiousness that turns into a tingling pain across my skin and a pining for something missing.
I've only just grown to realise just how much this has all affected my life.

Darker days.

They won't last for ever. Doc might give me something nice.